I was lying on the bed the other day, thinking about my life.. and where it is heading. Then I started reminiscing my school days and found that I had no happy memories.
To be frank, I was a nobody at school. Most people ignored me. Those who didn't ignore me, bullied me. It wasn't that I did not have any friends. I did. But I didn't have much fun at school. People look back at their school days and relate stories about the fun they had in school. I find that I have no such stories to tell. In the long life that we live, most of the days gone by are insignificant. We remember only the days when something happy or significant happened. An achievement probably. The rest of the days are lost to the memory. My whole school life was like that. There were embarrassing instances... we cannot forget them even if we try to. Other than that, it was an insignificant phase of my life.
Subconsciously, I may have thought back then that I want to make something out of myself. Six years down the line, I look at myself and ask the question: Have I made something out of myself? Frankly, I do not know the answer...
There are different ways to approach the answer. I can look at my classmates and see what they are doing right now. One of them became an air-hostess, which is cool. Another one joined the NDA, which is cool too. One other is studying in BITS with me right now. None of the rest have done anything significant that I know of. So I say to myself.. look, I am better than most of them. Then I look at my college mates who joined this college along with me 4 years ago. I look at them now and compare them to myself. Not a pretty sight....
So what should be the answer to my question?
4 comments:
feel sad for you, you only know what Abhinav , Varun and Lijy are doing , and what about all the others, do you even know them ?? and btw , why even this comparison, can you define success or insignificance, there is no meaning to those terms. Determine your interests, get set, go. You don have to live for the world.
guess u are right..
one tends to think these things when things are not going ur way..
Our achievements in Bits Pilani ::
1. Meeting loads and loads of people with diverse minds
2. Listening to what each one of them have to say
3. Then integrating it
4. To devise , half-consciously, our own system of looking at the world
5. Then working with the advanced tools of analysis
6. All this was effort.And we did it
I think we know more abt ourself and the world than when we were 17
And, we'd been enjoying the process, weren't we ?
nice post :) , reflections
Our achievements....contd.
> We learned how to waste time.
> We learned how to play CS, DOTA, AOE, WOW
> We learned how to 'What u regularly do without fail watching u know what' at different timings and styles...
and u name them...
we learned a lot...
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